STINK bug.

looking around the office i couldn't spot it right away but i just did. it's almost blocked by the glare of the energy saver bulb up there, in its blinding energy saving-ness. i noticed it first when i went to use the bathroom. darn thing was sitting on the side of the doorway, just hangin out. by the time i was done peeing and washing my hands i forgot it was there and knocked it off. i was going to write about how it was dive bombing me while i sat here but that's taking it much too personally. i know that in reality it was doing that bug bounce fly bounce land bounce thing around the lights. it's what they do. they're bugs. it's crawling a bit now. toward the light. i'm drinking mountain dew and reading a fitness magazine.com article on how to make over my motivation. it's called not signing up for more group home shifts than what's really feasible. i'm fearful of resignation because i can't think of a better word for it. i was dropped from supportive and now i never see april. i miss her. she always made me feel better and listening to her talk about herself was very inspiring. i should tell her that...hold on.
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the irony? gmail will not let me send or save the email i sent to her. does gmail want me to call her and tell her? how come gmail couldn't tell me that it wants me to be more personable BEFORE i typed the whole thing? i'm just being lazy. i realize this. perhaps i should text her...hold on.
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'message sent'. thank you verizon. the stink bug has traveled down the track of the track lighting fixture to two lights down which is further away from the window but on the next light that is on. i think i should assume the stink bug is a female stink bug and i'd like to name her donette. there was a pt at phbh with that name and she was one tough cookie. i hope she's well. i can't see donette (the stink bug) anymore. oh wait there she is. crawling around the fixture. i wonder what she's looking for. bugs take such risks. i'm pretty sure they're aware of their risks and yet they take them anyway. in the spirit of thinking like a bug and moving forward at the risk of loss or change, i plan on tendering a tender letter of resignation two weeks into january, in the hopes of dropping my mon/fri evening commitment as RC for the sub status instead for february and onward. if someone is going to step on me about it (which i doubt but one never knows) then i'll make my little stink and move on.
i keep telling myself that if i wasn't at work right now i'd be changed in my gym clothes and at the gym that's across from work. i need to magically have the energy really early in the morning to drive up to the n. b. wow and bust out some sweat droplets. is it feasible? leave the house at 6 to be at the gym for 7-8? i'd have to sleep in my gym clothes and bring stuff to shower...it's a lot of prep but i suppose it can be done? maybe get up out of bed at 530 to prep breakfast, lunch and dinner? what about only on tuesdays, thursdays, saturdays and sundays? that would mean only two days with a schedule that's particularly nutty...and it would also mean two of those days would catch days when i'm going home after, and not to the gym (at least for the month of january). the 6th is the bf's bday, and the 11th is our anniversary. perhaps this plan just might work...i feel like the grinch or something. i almost busted out a grinchy grin. out comes the agenda book!
thoughts? anyone? anyone? bueler?